the long journey "home"

yes i did just use the term "home," quotation marks are required. i realize that once again, the house i grew up in is NOT my home. the greyness and cold remind me of the big reasons i moved south to begin with.

took me forever to get here. and it just feels surreal to be here at all. i am waiting to have a curfew imposed upon me. because well, that is how mom is.

friends haven't changed, but they have. i don't know. more to come i guess

h

completely unrelated to education

lately i feel like forrest gump chasing after jenny. looking for love in all the places it doesn't reside. coming across potential sources of it at the wrong times. just adding to my lonely existence of late. yes i have been making friends, and hanging out with people, and meeting nice guys who have potential...but still nothing that seems to be IT. not that i know what IT is, i'd like to think it is something i would recognize when the time was right...but who really knows.

for those of you who don't know me in the "real" world, this is a regular issue with me. i seem to attract and/or be attracted to men who don't want a relationship, but that they want to play...(see "dating" history...mike, jon, joey). i think i found another one here...i guess time will tell with this one.

out for now
miss h