who is the jackass?

oh yea, that is right, it is me.
I overslept again
like a fool. bought presents for my boss, who has had to cover for me both days.
set 3 alarm clocks for tomorrow.
not that it is an excuse, but maybe I am getting sick?

oversleeping

so when I worked in corporate offices oversleeping meant very little. Mostly it meant that I had to stay at work later than normal. By no means was that professional behavior, but the consequences were minimal and I rarely put someone else into a position of having to do my work while I was sleeping.

Today, for the first time in 2 years I committed that minor error of oversleeping. Now from this I have learned many little lessons that I would like to share with you in list form....

1. at 4'11" I should only take the child's dose of generic nite-quil

2. I can be ready to leave for work in less than 10 minutes (cuteness being ignored behind speed)

3. I do NOT look good without make-up

4. My students can tell when I don't have on make-up

5. There is way more traffic at 8am than there is at 530am

6. I do not teach well without that extra hour to get ready before I deal with kids

7. My co-workers have to do my job when I oversleep

8. I don't need a venti bold from starbucks if I get to sleep past 730am

9. My mom will not wake me if I sleep late anymore

10. The small amount of respect I get from my kids goes straight out the window when I engage in behavior that they enjoy.

dating as a teacher

So, one of the things that is a big part of my life is dating and other general relationship issues. the challenge with dating as a teacher is that the kids are unavoidably a part of that...be it them noticing a change in mood or being out on a date and encountering a kid. no way to avoid that stuff without being some sort of a freak. And really, that stuff isn't all that big of a deal, I mean truly, the kids are cool about it all.

For the last year or so I have been in a relationship with a guy who live across the state from me. I thought (in a naive way) that the distance would not be a big deal. Long story short, fidelity was not one of his priorities, and I am once again single. What I did not take into account was how my kids would take care of me. The break up was less of a big deal than you would think...no hysteria or gut emotion based drama...but my kids were still supportive.

Please don't think of me as that teacher who shares too much. I at least don't think that I am. But it is very hard to interact with people the way that I have to with my students and not connect enough for them to know that I am dating someone specific. So in any case, love from the kids, was sweet.

And that leads me to my current challenges, finding a new source of men to date. Now some people date coworkers, not so much an option for me, the single men are not my type and the ones that are my type are not single. Other people get together in bars, now I am a girl who does not normally hang out in bars alone, so how do I get men to approach me there? right, moving on. The internet, though a great source of potential dates, it also leaves me open to my students knowing or finding undo personal information. So dilemmas abound. Time will tell.

a long time coming

I hate that I don't post here often enough. I hate that I am so stressed at work this year. I love my kids. I do. They help me maintain some serious humility. I value them greatly. The thing that I am struggling with right now is the lack of respect I get from them. I am worried that I am very lax in my classroom management skills. But that is another issue altogether. For now i am thankful to have my students as a distraction from my breakup...nothing like a cheating, lying boyfriend and a lengthy email from the girl he had been dating since prior to his divorce.

I say that I am over it, but I don't think I am...I don't think that I want to be over it yet. I want to have the emotional response to all of this, to be angry and cry...I just haven't gotten there, and I don't know why.

In the bigger picture, I have a new set of kids entering my class soon. should be fun.
we will see.