Wednesday, July 18, 2007

new home and third wheeling.

and after another inappropriate delay, I return to work out more mental issues.

first, a bit of news, I am slowly settling into a new home. It is a good change, a pretty place and a lot more homey than the old apartment. I am so sick of unpacking...I hated moving...I just wanted to to happen via magic. I know, it is all a fantasy, but I wanted it none the less.

now, in the new digs I have taken a roommate. she and I fit together very well. both very laid back and chill personalities. we read alot, and watch girlie tv shows. it bodes very well. and she is dating a good friend of mine, which makes me glad to see them both happy. he is around most of the time, and I am not quite sure how I feel about that just yet. but I do at least have my own room to go and hide in (so to speak).

The point of interest or potential argument is the tv in the living room. it is my tv. and I was insistent that my tv go in the living room...after a bout of insomnia, I removed that sort of stuff from my try to create a sanctuary. so now when I watch tv and he is here, I feel like I am intruding on their time together, or that he is being put out by my desire to voice an opinion on what is being watched (sorry, I am not a fan of watching someone else's man flip through the channels and turn the tv volume to overkill levels).

I really hate the whole 3rd wheel feeling. It is one of the reasons I moved here. So I just hope that it doesn't overwhelm the whole thing. and I don't want it to mean that I have to go get a way. it isn't my way. it would be nice, but I would like to find love for better reasons.

ranting over.